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How you feel does matter.

[He resists the urge to reach out, mostly because they are super naked so that would be pretty weird. Simon tries to replicate those intentions with his voice, which is firm, direct, and surprisingly gentle.]

You can want the people you love to be safe and still be hurting too. That's... Life! It hurts. A lot! All the time.

It's normal.

[The blond shakes his head, catching a glimpse of those tears.]

You can cry, y'know.

I won't tell anybody.

[As much as Simon would like to forget, he does remember. Hell, he cried when he touched down on this very island.]

I don't cry.

_{[ He used to always cry but he doesn't anymore.. but it isn't for any toxic masc reason that we all may be thinking of. The tears are gone in an instant and he opens his eyes. ]}

I cried everything out of me about two years ago. I don't think I can ever cry that hard again. I'm all dried up.

_{[ A pause. ]}

... Yeah. I guess I do want the people I care about to be safe. Old habits die hard.

_{[ Which is indirectly saying he cares about you, Mr. Ratfink. ]}

[When Akira states that he doesn't cry, all Simon can think is that to some degree, he desperately relates. After bawling his eyes out one too many times between the ages of ten through twelve, he had sworn to move forward and grow into someone admirable and strong. The kind of person who could survive in the wilderness and hold his own...

Unfortunately, he just grew up to be an incel.]

Pfft, right.

[Simon's expression changes drastically, his mouth twisting to form a thin line and tone of voice dropping. The slimy fool is too dense to realize that he too is included in that umbrella of people whom Akira happens to care for.]

Your weird friend is here.

He is, but I don't have a pact with him, Simon.

_{[ Nope, not gonna outright say it. ]}

My association with him is complicated.

_{[ He's a special case. Definitely. ]}

I care about him, but when I first got here, I almost killed him. I can honestly say I'm not sure what to do about him, but I acted out in aggression. I'm deciding to approach him more carefully for now.

[ok so he's just gonna make a mental note that murder is on the table if he pisses akira off which... honestly for simon is a perfectly and supposedly Sane and Reasonable thing to do!!! if someone pisses you off > they bcum an enema or an enemy > and an enemy is a threat 2 b vanquished

#fatality]

Well, whatever happened between you two...

[nO SIMON!!! N O]

He seems to have some pretty strong feelings for ya.

[simon is counting on the fact that akira has a rock-like skull when it comes 2 some things lmfao bc... he doesn't want to get in trouble with the other evil blond]

We're childhood friends— of course he does.

_{[ and then they were room mates.
Akira wrinkles his nose and makes a face, recalling how Ryo acted when he first talked to Miki when he came looking for Akira. ]}

Simon, have you been talking to him? I warned you about him.

[That causes Simon to take some pause. On one hand, he'd agree, yet on the other? It sucks being the one with Feelings feelings.]

Cool it.

[His half-hearted response seems to imply that he doesn't think too highly of the Actual Devil of whom they speak.]

Spendin' time with that guy is like tryin' to chat up a wet blanket with long eyelashes... If the blanket were also somehow really mean.

And, I would know? I've talked to one. Uh... It's another weird train thing.

[there's gotta be a wet blanket denizen out there]

I can't say I like the guy, but I do feel kinda bad for him.

He totally misses you.

No, I won't cool it. He's dangerous. Extremely so. He just doesn't realize it. Even so, he still has threatened people that I care about before.

_{[ Ah. There's the hint again. ]}

Do whatever you want, but don't be upset if he ends up hurting you. And..

_{[ Akira takes in a sudden breath, though his voice is straying from remaining its usual calm and cold demeanor. He sounds a lot more prickly. ]}

H.. He doesn't deserve being my friend anymore. He deserves to die, but I can't find myself killing him. Not when he can't remember who he is and what he's done. He can have a fair fight with me. I guess he deserves at least that.

[Simon watches that bizarre myriad of emotions, slightly curious, but not enough to pry too harshly. His eyes narrow when Akira mentions Ryo's ruthless nature,]

Yeah.

[There's an air of confirmation to that one syllable.]

He seems like the type.

[Takes one to know one.]

Whatever he does, or doesn't do... I don't really give a hoot.

I've just got a feeling that he'd do anything to be close to you.

[He quirks a thin eyebrow upwards.]

And if he's a traitor, well...

Then he's lost that right.

Exactly. He has.

_{[ cue little scheming simon ratfink squeaking amirite ]}

I almost wish he would be conscious of his true power. That way I can fairly fight him.. and fairly tear him limb from limb.

_{[ OH ... just look at that snarl.. ]}

At the same time, we grew up together. We've always been friends. I have wondered if there is a way I could help him, but even so and I decide to spare him, things will never be the same between us. Not anymore.

[...That talk sets a few gears in motion.

It should speak to how selfish Simon is at his core that he perks up at this, despite the fact that Ryo's life is on the line. Perhaps it's true that the other blond has been nothing but demeaning and cruel towards him, but that doesn't warrant death, now does it?

Well, sure. And yet if that were to happen, say, by another hand...]

...Never?

[Now. It certainly wouldn't be Simon's fault.]

Edited 2021-06-18 03:40 (UTC)

_{[ Simon out here asking all the hard questions. "Never?" Akira has to wait for a moment to actually think about that. Could things really go back to the way they were? Akira's bitter and still grieving, but his answer seems pretty straight forward. Simon deserves an explanation at least. ]}

His deceitfulness is what indirectly lead everyone I love to their deaths. Yes, even the person I loved as a romance.

Things can't go back to normal after something like that, but I also think he is truly innocent in this situation here.. so it makes me confronting him very difficult.

[When he opens his mind to it, Simon is the type of person who absorbs information like a sponge... Provided that whatever the metaphorical liquid consists of is to his liking.]

Well, that's his problem.

[The words come so quickly, as if spat out.]

The people you love are everything.

[He says this not because he is a giving or kind fellow, oh no. Years of tacking teeny band-aids over the kind of emotional wounds that gape and rot have left him ill. So sick that without the person whose visage has stood at the center of his mind's eye, over addressing his own problems or answering all those painful questions, he can't comprehend a life worth living at all.]

He destroyed what was most important to you.

[Simon's eyes narrow, words rife with disbelief.]

And you're still lettin' him live!

[And like any monster with a voracious appetite, born from wickedness or anything else-]

That's more than enough.

_{[ By the sounds of it, it seems Simon might have loved (or currently loves) someone. Akira heaves out a sigh. He's a rather level headed person when it comes to keeping calm, but every once in awhile he has to continue to restrain himself.. especially with Amon's aggressive behavior mingling with his. ]}

... Yeah. You're right. It is more than enough.
I guess for some reason something is holding me back from actually killing him. I don't know what. I wouldn't hesitant to kill anyone else who hurt Miki-chan. I do think, though, Ryo should have a chance to live until he comes into his power. That's what I've decided. Or..

_{[ Or.. ]}

Unless he hurts someone I care about.

_{[ Looking directly at Simon now. Please get a clue. ]}

[Simon blankly stares back, gaze unwavering. So what, this is a staring contest now? Why is Akira looking at him.

sobs he still didn't get it]

...Wait, what are his powers anyway?

I heard he was responsible for the Earth, well, your Earth, goin' kablooey-

[doN'T ALKLDJSF MENTION THE APOCALYPSE SO CASUALLY SIMON!!!]

But how did he do that, exactly?

_{[ well since we are gonna describe them apocalypse as KABLOOEY.. ]}

He’s Satan, Simon. An archangel that rebelled against God and made an army out of other rebellious, fallen angels. Ryo doesn’t know his identity yet I’ve realized.. and I don’t know how he remembers who he is which is why I haven’t even mentioned the name in front of him.

Do not tell him, or you could jeopardize all of us.

_{[ this is heavy ]}

His powers are close to mine. After all, demons and fallen angels are similar. He can regenerate and shoot powerful beams from his body. However, his greatest power is his charisma to charm and deceive. His heart is cold towards humans once he discovers who he is and wants them eradicated so he can claim Earth.

He also looks much different in his true form with twelve sparkling wings and a different body.

_{[ aka he has like a C cup probably ]}

He did it by telling the world as a demonologist expert that anyone could be a demon and should be destroyed before they reach their demon form. This fearmongering tactic made humans turn on each other.

Edited 2021-06-30 03:37 (UTC)

I'm not gonna tell him anything.

[It's a lot of information, sounding much like the kind you'd read as backstory within a meaty novel, something classical with tiny print, boring and unrelatable to someone with a low attention span for things like philosophy or complex thought. Simon hasn't really done his fair share of questioning- It seems unnecessary. Why doubt what you've always known as undoubtedly, indubitably, the right way?]

So he's the devil himself? But as of right now, he doesn't know.

[He remains tight lipped, but inwardly, the gears do begin to turn. A lot of bits and pieces of what Ryo's told him here and there start adding up. His father had probably tried to kill him because of who he really was, and while that would be traumatic for any person, Simon only allows himself to feel even the tiniest sliver of empathy for those he sees fit, and even then the mark is often missed by a longshot.

That does still leave Simon with a few questions though- Was Ryo really in love with Akira? Or was whatever he was experiencing some kind of innate magnetic attraction, merely a facet of his true self that he was largely unaware of?

Look who's already making excuses.]

Could've called that one.

[meaning: ryo is just an asshole, news at 11]

I almost feel sorry for the guy.

[Spoken with no emotion. Almost is the key word.]

Could you? What are you, a Satan expert?

_{[ this line is so funny and so 80's...
In any case, Akira heaves out a sigh. Mostly from relief. it's been nice to air out all of this stuff to someone who doesn't think he's crazy. ]}

... Me too. But.. I've always been someone who thought how important justice is.. you'd think I'd want to kill him right away, but.. I've explained myself. I don't think it's fair.. and I do feel sorry for him cause he doesn't know who and what he is.

_{[ A pause. He settles his hand on Simon's shoulder. ]}

Hey. Thanks for coming out here with me.. and listening to me.. and just being a friend to me. I think you know how apprehensive and wary I was about opening up to someone else, but it's been relieving.

_{[ yeah that's right he said the "F" word ]}

No!

[Said poutily, huffily, like a child would.]

But I do know evil when I see it.

[u kno, like when he wakes up every morning and looks at his own reflection in the mirror??? jk, we wish ratboy was that self aware]

I-

[Simon folds his arms over his chest, still clearly ruffled by all the talk of the Evil Blond that isn't him, that is until-]

Oh.

[Akira places a firm hand on his shoulder and says the magic word.

Simon blinks once or twice as he feels an intense pang at the base of his stomach, like a knot that's been kicked by an invisible limb. He experiences a rush of relief and joy all at once, which comes at him the way a wave would, swallowing him whole. And yet, that happy little tide of emotions isn't enough to sweep away something else, a familiar and ugly monstrosity that his been looming over Simon's head and heart since he was small-]

I...

[It's a voice that only he can hear, not human, although sometimes it sound like a wicked distortion of someone familiar. The Cat. Grace. Rarely, maybe even his mother, or what he thinks she sounded like. At this point it's been so long he can barely remember.

It whispers quietly, as if to say-]

I'm just glad I could help.

[That this time, just like all the others, he's going to screw it all up.

Big time.]

It means a lot to me that you...

[gulp gulp gup]

Trust me.

_{[ Looks like Simon is having a hard time getting his words out, but when they finally do, Akira smiles genuinely at him and gives his shoulder an affirming squeeze. With that, he breaks further away from Simon and stands to his feet, heading out of the bath to grab the nearest towel and wrap it around himself. ]}

It probably means more to me that I can trust you. Not to be dramatic. You're an okay guy.

_{[ Another towel goes on Akira's head, drying off his hair from the hose shower before. ]}

If you weren't, you'd be dead by now.

_{[ NOW WHO IS REALLY THE CLOWN.. ]}

[Simon should really be paying more attention to the literal threat that's being uttered so openly, but he finds himself distracted by those stupid butterflies in his stomach and the sight of Akira's naked body, which he only realizes he's been staring at a few seconds after the fact. In ratboy's defense, the other teen really doesn't seem to give a damn, and truth be told, he's never seen the human form in all it's native splendor, not a day in his life. Hell, Simon hasn't even given himself a good once-over in the mirror, ever. ]

Yeah, being alive's cool, I guess.

[He swallows hard, STILL S T A R I N G like a fooL!!!! Only to turn his head away when timidly tucking a blond strand of hair behind his ear.]

Thanks for not rippin' my throat out.

[Simon draws a hand to his chest- Shit. He didn't realize that by agreeing to this little bonding exercise he... Essentially left himself completely open to attack from very real danger.]

I guess bath time's over, then...?

[look at him... waiting for akira to leave so he doesn't have to expose his pasty undercarriage to anyone ever bc nOOOOOO the huMiLIATION]

_{[ Good thing Akira is still towel drying his hair and oblivious to any staring. He's also a blockhead, so. He probably wouldn'tb have noticed anyway. ]}

Oh.. I wouldn't have done that. That's not how I would have done it..
I would have punched through you and grabbed your heart.

_{[ UM... ]}

And crushed it. Or..

_{[ He finally tugs the towel off of his head and wrings it out.. wow.. did he really have to wring it out that tightly and flex his muscles that hard in the process..?? ]}

My personal favorite is ripping an enemy in two and seeing how evenly they can be split.

_{[ AH ... he sounds like such a villain..! His tone lightens up considerable as he looks over at Simon. ]}

Whoa.. sorry. I just.. I get into it. I really like fighting. I've never done anything like that to a human.. and even though a demon's biology varies and is incredibly different, they typically have the same vital organs.

[this is one of those moments where simon realizes it's been a long time since he's touched somebody bc... why does the heart thing almost sound romantic r i p

The brief mention of violence both excites and terrifies him. Other than the zombies at the beach, who had happened to creep up on him while he was having a particularly difficult crying fit, he hasn't felt the joy of victory from a good fight in ages. As messed up as Simon is, even he knows that this is highly abnormal, so he just keeps it to himself.]

So they're the same on the inside even though on the outside they're all big and monster-y?

[he means demons... ofc]

Mm, yeah, for the most part. The entrails I've seen looks similar. There's differences, but minor ones. Their exterior is usually what is the biggest difference.

_{[ he's talking like its explaining the weather.. ]}

You should know that by now after seeing my Devilman form so many times.

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i can't believe simon laurent is speaking words that actually make a whole lot of fucking sense smh

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i don't even know what to cw: this nudity ig

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